Please don't tell me how to feel..

no matter how well meaning

I can't remember exactly how long I've been working on my Instagram quilt…

But I think it's about 15 years.

I've very deliberately been personal in what I share so that if I ever have grandchildren they can get to know me from my “digital quilt.”

So it's not just as simple as “just start again” or “don't let them get to you.”

But at the same time I'm also VERY aware that my loss is INSIGNIFICANT in the context of what's happening everywhere else.

And I want to be able to voice that without well-meaning people telling me I shouldn't compare and that my grief is valid.

Basically, just let me do my thing right now.

I don't want to be “corrected” or mansplained.

It's completely discombobulating to not have a “voice” in the two places (Facebook & Instagram) that I would normally communicate a few times a day.

Of course I'll find a solution, I always do.

And those that tried to silence me will regret it because I'll use their attack as fuel.

But yeah, for now, in these few days of me just absorbing the enormity of it all…please just tread really carefully. It's very very likely I don't want to hear what you think is “helpful”.

I'm feeling very fragile even if I don't look like it.